Vacation Fat

A few days ago, I woke up and glanced at myself in the mirror. Put my palm against my paunch and realized, “I’m getting fat.”

I sighed. When my stomach sticks out like this, it typically means it’s time to stop eating quite so much. To start working out regularly. To discipline myself and try to reduce the net calories per day. I’ve done it all before, I’m doing now, and I will do it again. Like the moon, waxing and waning.

But everytime it happens, I scold myself. “How could I do this to myself?”

And it’s no one thing. It is one helping too many, too often. It was getting up in the morning after going to bed too late. I check my emails, edit, play a fast video game, or write a new story. Then on my way to work, I grab a pastry or breakfast sandwich. Anything but going for a jog, hitting the weights, push ups and sit ups. It’s not having something simple like fruit and toast for breakfast.

Work doesn’t help. Aside from sitting there all day, I’m free to help myself to sodas and snacks they put in the break room. Sometimes they do healthier options, like juices, fiber bars or trail mix. But calories are calories, and they add up regardless of the source. My clothes get too tight

And what really sucks about working out and eating right is that it has to get worse before it looks better. Say I go for a jog and my stomach perks out instead of in. I feel awful because my body reaches for the easiest energy source and finds the crap I had for breakfast.

And all the while, I think about all the events that led me to this. A dash of depression, so I throw myself into work, both the development and the writing. I let myself get out of balance. Keeping things consistant just doesn’t work for me. No matter how hard I try, someone keeps throwing a wrench my way.

C’est la vie.

Another Day

You ever notice how bad news is usually things you didn’t see coming that hit you unexpectedly, while good news is often things you have worked hard to earn?

My brother’s computer has finally been repaired. Took a new power supply unit and Windows 7 installation. I thought hard about it; I could have installed Windows XP or Linux. But I don’t know how well he could handle Linux. And XP will eventually be phased out. It is a great OS, but Microsoft will eventually drag us forward. When Microsoft plays hardball with its customers, is it any surprise that many of them got on the Apple train?

Anyway, to pay my brother back for the pain in the rear it was to gather what I needed and actually do it, I left him a little one-fingered surprise for his desktop background. I’m sure he’ll love it.

Up this morning, I checked my weight and body fat percentage. Weight is down to 182.5, down from 188.5 lbs. It may sound like a lot, but a portion of that is just not eating as much as usual. The actual BFP is down from 14.1% to 13.7%, which is progress.

Good way to start the day. Prospero Burns review goes up in a few hours.